|Kween of Love :)|
Do you believe in unconditional love?
Agape love...*notice how it's the same word that means "open"*
a·ga·pe2 [ah-gah-pey, ah-guh-pey, ag-uh-]
so yea, I do.
Conditions are limitations. Once you start saying, "I love you, but..." or "I love them because..." you're set up for failure. Folks used to ask me why I loved my ex. "What IS it about him, Kali?" I was asked on more than one occasion...and though I COULD have (and have) chosen a few reasons...the truth was, "I just do..."
No reason. No motive. No excuses. Sometimes you love someone just because. I love my friends and family. I love strangers in the street. I met an old lady in Dunkin Donuts today...and out of nowhere she and I began clicking. This little old, short white lady with tight gray curls...was so adorable to me. Perhaps the spirit of my grandma. Either way...I claimed her. She said she had grandkids my age (because I said I was OLD, LOL). I said as I patted her on the back, "I could use another grandma!" Well, she reached up and kissed my cheek and hugged me (which I believe I sorely needed). I was too giddy. Did it matter that she was a stranger? WHITE? ...nope. I hearted her for that moment and I will have impressions of unconditional love on my heart from that moment in time...clearly, a sign of care from my angel...my grandma.
It's hard to love at times when you yourself are in need of some loving care. You want people to reach out to you and behold you with all of the strength and fervor...all of the boundless intent...that you attempt to love others...but, then...that would be conditional. Loving in the HOPES that someone might love you back. I'd say it was a thankless job...but, then I'd be forgetting that God is VERY grateful that His Kali (child closest to God in Egyptian)...is reppin' him like a G!
At times...I have to put down my armor and shield. My sword and fight. I am SO fiercely protective of people I love that I often forget that they have been given the same thing that I was given...volition. They will tumble and fall as I have...and with the help of people who love them such as myself, will get back up again. Sometimes, you have to put worldly limits on a universal indefinableness...just to survive. Not that you'd be placing condition on YOUR love...just a limit to how far you're willing to go to prove you love someone.
I've loved and still love every person who meant a thing to me...
"In distance, love exists...arms stretched past lines of unseen defense. In distance, love exists...powers engaged past forces of human frailty. In distance, love exists...in my prayers for you, even when I have nothing to gain but the feeling that I love you...in distance...with no condition"