have you ever been so lonely, that you remember the embrace from cold arms of a past charmer? have you ever been so lonely, that you consider going back to a neglectful cat? with a short reach... and an attention span to match? have you ever been so lonely, that you consider dealing with profanities, infidelities, insecurities, obscenities, idiosyncrasies... possibly even a ode to thee... on your knees... just to get an "i love you"? sometimes, the void is unending the longing, vacuous... leaving room for distorted images of perfect times of enveloping hugs that felt like love... even when it wasn't that can make you want to abandon abandonment... for deluded contentment have you ever been this lonely? ...i may have felt that lonely... but i'm not. not so lonely that i'd suck up miles of shit regurgitated and remixed into a safety net with a hole the size of lonely's pain and hate's despair... not so lonely that i'd toss my dignity to the wind attached to a feather... even when the lonelies sneak in and lay me down tearfully, tucks me in with doubts... wakes me up on the wrong side of the bed gives me attitude headaches from love hangovers... i'm just not that lonely.
I'm a lover AND a fighter...I like the folks most don't. I walk to the beat of a drummer....who isn't REALLY in the band, but got the best beats. I am big on love..."I see you" where you're at...hopefully this blog helps you to see me, as well. Either Love me...or leave me alone!
Having neither to weigh thoughts nor measure words, but pouring them all right out, just as they are, chaff and grain together; certain that a faithful hand will take and sift them, keep what is worth keeping, and then with the breath of kindness blow the rest away. - a quote by Dinah Craik