Scopers


Just Thinking...


I've been looking at my life in overview. This year especially. 2008...8 being the number of possibilities...makes me sit in wonder of all that this year has presented me with. I fell in love this year. I wasn't looking for it...it just happened. Truth is...I didn't WANT it. Not after the disappointments I'd experienced...I just wanted to coast. Yet, I fell. A lot of people have not felt like it was a smart fall (what fall is smart besides a fake prat fall for comedic purposes?). A few say it was based in fantasy...and I tend to agree that in part it was. In my heart though, I've fallen for him based on a spiritual and mental connection. No one needs to understand that but him and I. If it works...God bless and if it doesn't, God bless.

I've also come into my own in a lot of ways that I didn't see for myself this year. I made a trip from NY to AL all on my own for the 1st time. Having severe Narcolepsy makes that a wonderful feat. I then did it again, with a shorter trip from NY to PA. Philly to be exact. Because of these trips I've met some cool people and made them family. That in and of itself is a beautiful thing...but, I've also met my inner me. I've become more in tuned with the person I am. Voicing my feelings on a consistent basis to who needs to hear it has been hard. I'd been a people pleaser for so long in the name of peace...that I created my own inner chaos...but, I'm learning every day to be more self-preserving.

I've also been more creative poetically and literally than I had in the past. I penned my 1st short erotica series and am almost finished with my first novel...a thriller. I pray that God continues to inspire me and allow me to manifest some dreams.

Throughout this year, I have found more confidence and self love than I'd ever beheld. I began loving ME...the woman at the core. Learning from past mistakes...while making more along the way for future's reference. I came out of my shell and am not as shy as I once was. I owe a lot of that to my love. I am grateful. I don't take much for granted. I try to be gracious and grateful for all I am blessed with. I try to be accountable for my mistakes and I try to share my lessons and jewels of knowledge with anyone willing to listen/read. I love with all I have and am. All I ever wanted was for ONE person in my life to love me and cherish me fully. Not to convenience, condition or circumstance...but embracing the full me from core to crust.

That's another thing I've learned...that my philosophy on unconditional love remains the same...and I must remind myself of it. No matter WHAT I accomplish, WHERE I go, WHOM I love...to put expectations to bed. Expectations are the death of anything. Disappointments will drain you of your faith, patience and hope. If I've learned anything in this year...I've learned THAT mantra remains true.

Peace

2 scopers scoping:

Diamond~Star said...

Imma congratulate you on that trip from New York to Alabama with a stand cause I'm right here in South Carolina and Alabama to me seem like it's way across the country **I'm tired already thinking about that**. I can drive from SC to DC (which is farther depending on where you are going but the scenic route is alot better than the route from SC to AL).

At any rate, YOU GO GIRL!!! You always seem to be an inspiring person to me, regardless of what. I've been chatting with you back and forth through Multiply, 360, and here on Blogger for a year, yet you and the few folks I do chat with feel like family. Keep doing what you do. When that book of yours come out the blogger gang wants to be at the book signing!!!

Da_Kween said...

Thanks, Diamond. I really appreciate your kind words. I only write what I feel...I never know at all times who it affects and how. I'm glad that we've connected over here as well. The moment my book comes out, I will let you know! :)

Find It

 

Like Me a LOT

GGX Jewels

GGX Jewels
Inspire Your Inner Diva

The Beautiful Blogger Award

The Beautiful Blogger Award
Aw, Champ...for ME?

Kween's Sentry

MyFreeCopyright.com Registered & Protected

Lia Sophia

Lia Sophia
Contact JoAnn Monroe for beautiful jewelry

The Love & Truth Challenge

The Love & Truth Challenge

Networked Blogs

Blogroll

I Love Your Blog

I Love Your Blog
Thanks Cook!

The Versatile Blogger Award

The Versatile Blogger Award
Thanks Champ!

sitemeter

About

CURRENT MOON