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Thanks Fantasia




Well, as I'd written in a previous blog...I lost my paternal grandmother. This blog...I guess, is just a way to say, "I'm okay" and touch base with you all.

This song, debuted itself the night my grandmother died and I tell you...everytime I hear it I am crying by song's end. Honestly...it's one of the best songs I've heard Fantasia sing. She usually screams through songs...so this softly sung ballad is a refreshing joy.

"First step, take a deep breath...you don't need a reason why. You can (You can) take, take time...you can (you can) walk...run...dive."

I'm stepping back into life gingerly. Going to work and functioning. Talking and laughing with people, at shows, singing and smiling with music. Trying to find my way back to poetry and writing. What I DO regret (now that I think of it) is not allowing my grandmother to see the poetic part of me. It never dawned on me to show her. I wasn't hiding it or anything...but, I never brought that stuff up. We'd talk and laugh and swap stories when I called her...but, I don't think we ever discussed my love of writing. I hope she can see it now.

The wake and funeral services were beautiful. People of course said beautiful things...but they also said REAL things. Some called my grandmother "bossy" *giggling*...and that she COULD be. Some referred to her as the Queen...which I never knew. Funny that is what people call me now. Her love of her family and community was honored...especially the way she treated everyone like they were important. She'd make you feel so special. Never would she even outwardly display a dislike for you...even if she didn't. She still showed you respect and concern...she just kept her eye on you. LOL

There was a gathering of a medley of people who loved her. So many felt our loss. I mean, the pastor of the church, rented out the first floor of our family house. After attending church became difficult (because of my great uncle's care)...her pastor would come upstairs from his own apartment and have private bible studies with her. How special WAS she? *beaming*

Anyway...thanks, Fantasia. There's a song that evokes the deepest of emotions about my grandmother. From now on...it'll serve as a trigger to my memories (as if I really need one)...yet, it will bring about a positive sense of coping that I need to get through.

Love,

Baby Kween






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[fŭng'kē] [blak] [chik] said...

Glad to read you're doing well :)
This is a pretty good song...can't say I was really a fan of her music!

Da_Kween said...

Yea, I'm okay. I have my moments. Today I woke up thinking I had to call her :(

Butterfly Effect said...

Beautiful song! Take it a day at a time sis. You gon be alright. Love you!

Da_Kween said...

I'm trying...you've been a big help, sis. Love you back!

25champ said...

Nice song! Your a strong sis. Time heals all wounds. Just remember to smile when you think of her because she wouldn't have it any other way.

Da_Kween said...

Thanks Champ...I'm trying to be strong as possible...and you're right...she WOULDN'T have it any other way :)

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