My Last Blog

Circa 2009

~sigh~

Come tomorrow...the Kaleidoscope will close.

I remember how I got here. Blogging was new to me. I'd REALLY just become accustomed to the Internet. I had a MySpace account...and as my first taste of social media, it was cool. I met a few people over there that I still hold dearly inside my spirit. One of which, is my sister friend, Laticia..."Tish" to loved ones. She told me about the site Yahoo 360 and begged me to sign up. Reluctantly, I did and fell in love quickly.

Yahoo 360 was the kind of site where you could customize your background, the privacy settings and make it home. The "circle" you created wasn't the only circle. Your friend's list literally could go on and on and back to you. A friend on your list would lead to seeing someone on theirs who you didn't know...but, if you clicked enough...you'd wind up right back to someone who did indeed have you as a friend.

I didn't know how to truly "blog". I just wrote poetry and short stories and posted them. I didn't know there was a name for it. It's actually one of the FIRST places I ever felt comfortable placing my poetry. Other poets and writers would read and draw me to their pages and eventually, I found myself hooked up with a small conglomerate of writers/poets/artists/musicians/craftsmen.

I met so many cool people, but with that came the drama-filled people as well. It got to the point where I didn't feel I could blog freely without people assuming that my feelings were about THEM. That's where my friend Yesha (owner of Fly Chick Media, Sherlock Homegirl and Fly Black Chick Blog) came into play. I'd met her on Yahoo 360...and for a long time she was my partner in crime. She introduced me to TRUE blogging and from there I ended here. Blogger.

For a long time, no one knew of my site EXCEPT Yesha...

I blogged and spoke my feelings...freely. Eventually, somehow...(quite possibly through my ex) I began to show more people this site...and The Kaleidoscope was born. I remember the day I made this page and was typing so fast and obliviously that I misspelled "kaleidoscope" in my URL. (The first "o" ended up an "e") Once I realized it, I had already connected this URL to every other forum I was on...so, I left it.

I've met people through THIS forum. Lala (my Kissy Face). Alovelydai. Katlynne LaSalle...and a SLEW of other bloggers. Celebrity blogs, make up blogs, relationship blogs, life blogs, secret blogs, erotic blogs, poetry blogs, picture blogs...every kind of blog you can imagine, I've seen it. I've introduced OTHERS to this forum as well...kinda paying it forward to those in need of an outlet. Blogger begets blogger begets blogger...lol

Once here...I branched out and created blogs for my online talk show called "The Kween's Kouch". That ended and I changed the URL and made it my poetry blog, "Words On Wings". I also have an erotica blog (Passion's Fruit) AND a cooking blog (Kween Can Burn). I suppose I may have a touch of ADD or something, because I can't focus long...or perhaps it's the reality of my disorder, Narcolepsy (c) my blog "Sleeping Butterfly" on that disorder.

I've particpated in blog challenges. 30 days of just writing. 30 days of truth. 30 days of love...and 30 days of erotica. Over and over...I've lost and found my writing mojo here, but this time...it's just best to end it. At least for now. Maybe in a year or more, I'll feel like it...but the pressure of KNOWING it's here and nothing is being done, no progress is being captured in blog form...just feels disappointing.

ONE more time...I wanted to thank you ALL for showing support. For loving me and connecting with me, passing my blog's link along, commenting, respecting my craft through encouragement and praise. I thank you. I love you. I pray you all continue forward in your own endeavors with passion, urgency and follow through.

Peace...

Love always,

Kween