how it feels

i don't know...
i don't know how it feels
to have a man love me sweet and cool
write MY name...
envision a wedding
a life
write me
or dream me
i don't know how it feels
to have a man declare me his before i'm his
tell me of the vacancy
that occupies his mind
when i'm not around
how he cant live without me
or just doesn't want to
i don't know how it feels
to have him on his knees in sincere want
asking for my hand
for me to rep his clan
i don't know how it feels
to have a man keep promises
guaranteeing his word
to bond with my needs
i guess, i'm silly
to want a man to get mannish
protect his woman
as if i behold the answer to his being
to want him to let all sniffing 'round my door
to know the scent they smell
is of him and i
eau d' love's life
the essence of bliss
chemically reacting
mentally attracting
spiritually enacting
emotional transactions...
that only we can feel
i wanna know
but, the way things stand
i guess i may never know...
how it feels



...dedicated to some special sisters of mine